||[Jun. 4th, 2005|01:54 am]
Normally I go to bed alone. I will again, but not in my bed. I really don't know what to do with myself most of the time. I can feel some sort of energy inside me, but it hasn't found a way out yet. I see these people and I think, "Oh, yes..." or "Maybe thats it..." But once again, I really don't know. I think my whole being can be desrcibed as "set one notch above average." What do I do anymore? Where do I go for advice? I don't have anyone to tell me some things. I need someone to find me and in me the ability that needs an outlet.|
i have an outlet to suggest.
it's training for a triathlon [don't flinch just yet]
and raising money for people with leukemia, lymphoma, and other blood cancers...
you can choose to train and race for someone you know who has had the disease.
but yeah, depending on which race you do
you need to raise money to sponsor yourself
you get kick-ass mentors, who will, inevitably and gently, kick your ass...
you get to further/advance research of these diseases
yes, yes. it's a butt-load of money...just a small portion of the big picture, really.
i trained here in l.a. last summer from end of May to August...
actually i took a month off, i got lazy and school had started.
i was pretty depressed during the summer, all catatonic and floating around,
so it helped me get out. it was effing hard ,though. my mentors got mad at me.
i didn't get into the best shape of my life because i didn't train my ass off, but i did
successfully complete the olympic distance of the los angeles triathlon within a 24 hour period.
it was the most rewarding ,yet hardest task i have ever set out to accomplish phyiscally.
don't know if i'll ever do it again.
just a thought.
i'm pretty sure they're in your area...
-i forget if you're currently in illinois or oregon...something tells me illinois...-
your ability is writing. your outlet should be a book based loosely on your own life, thoughts, and feelings.
completely, that's what I was trying to say... but you put it into much simpler, exact words.. I'm bad at that.- Marisa